Chinanews Client Beijing, June 26 (Reporter Song Yusheng) At the end of 2014, a song "Crossing More Than Half of China to Sleep You" made Yu Xiuhua popular on the Internet overnight. Since then, she has published three collections of poems-"Moonlight on the Left Hand", "Dangling Earth" and "We Have Loved and Forgotten."
Yu Xiuhua, who almost never stepped out of Hengdian Village in the first half of her life, went to the Chinese University of Hong Kong and Stanford University in the three years after becoming famous and also won important awards in the poetry industry. It can be said that it was poetry that led her to run around the world.
Yu Xiuhua appeared at his press conference. Photo by Song Yusheng
It was during this time that Yu Xiuhua experienced the changes in the world around her. In 2015, Yu Xiuhua completed her nearly 20-year-old divorce; after that, her mother, who was regarded as "tian", died of cancer and died; with the construction of the countryside, Hengdian Village, which has lived for a lifetime, has also been replaced by new buildings.
Of course, there is no change in life. For example, Yu Xiuhua is still writing. From poems all the way; this year, her autobiographical novel "In the World" was published; in June, her first collection of prose, "Unprovoked Joy" was published.
Yu Xiuhua. Image source: Photo courtesy of interviewees
"Childlike words"-writing is shameful
What remains unchanged is Yu Xiuhua's frankness. Although she can only speak unclear words slowly, her words always give a feeling of "innocence".
When asked why it took such a long time to produce a book, Yu Xiuhua said that he "keep the slow speed deliberately." "I particularly dislike the authors who produce several books a year. I think they are not only consuming themselves, but also social resources, and more importantly, wasting paper. A poet I like very much said, he said that writings are waiting for others. People are very shameful. In order to be a shameful person more slowly, I postponed this book for two years before it was published. "
When referring to the question of how much money he made after being famous, Yu Xiuhua acknowledged that "it did make some money." But she also frankly said, "But I do n’t have much money, which makes me feel ashamed." Then Feng Feng teased the publishing house, "I think I'm even more ashamed of my publishing house. They don't sell much books, and don't have royalties. Gao, has not made me a real rich man. "
Data Map: Yu Xiuhua recites poems. Photo by Zhang Daozheng
"Slut poet"-"I am ashamed of this title"
In fact, while Yu Xiuhua was sought after by many people, her controversy never stopped. For example, some people think that Yu Xiuhua ’s poems are full of "literature" and "texture and pain." The poem is called "Slut Body".
The label "slut" originates from Yu Xiuhua's "Famous Work"-"Going to Sleep in You Through Most of China".
Someone asked her why she used the word "sleep". Yu Xiuhua asked: "You said that you love you through more than half of China. Why do you love you? Why love you?"
However, Yu Xiuhua did not endorse the "slut". She wrote in the article, "The four words of a slut poet are floating on the Internet, dare to take it seriously? But these four words really have nothing to do with my dime. In addition to swinging, I will also swing. Sculls. "
Data Figure: Yu Xiuhua.
"I don't deserve any man"
In the newly published prose collection, the last chapter is entitled "You Know How I Love You". The editor brings together the men that Yu Xiuhua loved.
But she considers herself "fear of marriage", and the "love" in the book is often only a temporary "mistake." In her opinion, many men are not generous, have no demeanor, and fear women's deep love.
But she also said that she "did not deserve any man." "I don't pursue love, but I can be emotional and emotional. I allow myself to make a little 'wrong', and a life without mistakes is meaningless. I will not tell him this kind of temptation, and slowly time will turn All this can be solved, there is no eternal love. "
But when a reader asks her about love, she still wants others to believe in love. "You are not the same as me. You have to believe in love. Don't be like me. In any case, there must be love around you, otherwise you will lose a lot."
Yu Xiuhua's first collection of essays, "Unprovoked Joy" book cover.
How to get the soul out of the body?
"Writing poetry is passion, writing prose is thinking." Yu Xiuhua also complained of unfair destiny, complaining that she "continues to encounter these or those broken things, it is really annoying."
Daily chores, the hardships of survival, the pain and anxiety of life ... these may be the "breaking things" that Yu Xiuhua has to face.
Every time I went out, Yu Xiuhua was alone and often fell because of inconvenience of legs and weak body. "I fell down halfway up the steps, and some people looked at me next to me, but none of them pulled me, I struggled a few times, got up without strength, simply sat on the ground and rested for a while ... I was here Sitting on the steps, sitting in the strange, curious and indifferent eyes. If you can't feel lonely at this time, it must be deceiving. "
And writing seems to be a way to get her soul out of the body, so that she can satisfy herself spiritually.
"The writer has an advantage. Every day, whether I write or not, my heart is serving the writing. I may not yet realize the benefits of life experience, but I will definitely give back to me in the future, so this is the advantage of the writer. "(Finish)